Wedding day

Saturday is the big day. I'm excited to see everyone but kinda nervous that it wont go so well. That side of the family doesn't favor mine because of the problems between my dad and my sisters mom. I hope everything goes well, but there is tension and I just hope nothing happens. First I'm going to take advantage of dressing up to take some pictures of my Baba and I. We haven't taken pictures in forever so I hope they turn out cute. But Tomorrow I start drivers training and need to find a ride to work so hopefully that goes well. I'm nervous about everything and nothing

Senior Year

Senior year is going pretty good so far. It's not as stressful this  year because I don't have as many classes as the other years. I keep thinking of things that haven't done and I feel like I have to accomplish them before I graduate. I keep thinking about how much happened in the last four years and how quickly it went. I can't believe that I'm graduating already. I think I'm ready, I just don't know what I want to do with my life. I know I want to do something that I like but there's nothing I can make a career out of. The only thing I'm really considering is being a cosmologist. Maybe be a hairstylist. I really like that kind of stuff but I don't know if that's a good career to go for or what. Anyway, things with ba have been going really good too. I'm a little moody and stressed out about somethings but we have been seeing each other so much. He takes me home after school everyday. All I want to do is put lazy clothes on cuddle and watch a movie with him. That's what I want to just relax and love each other. He's so perfect.

Late night thinking 🙈

I wonder If you ever think about us before everything. I do occasionally. I mean our lives are completely different and I'm happy with where I am but still like sometimes I wish that it was just back in 6th grade going to dumb school dances. Growing up in a hassle. I'm excited to be a senior but like I had such different e,pectations of this year when I was just a freshman. I've become so independent in school. We used to always be together and now its like I'm the lone wolf. And it kinda doesn't bother me because I just don't like walking with anyone else. I just can't believe how we've changed and its like getting to the point where I forget what it was like when we were close. And it feels like that wasn't even me. But idk sometimes I miss it

Delaware was perfect. I got to spend a week with my second family in Delaware. I had so much fun and I wish we never had to leave. It went by so fast, but we got to do just about everything. We went to the beach a couple times. We shopped a lot. We ate a lot. Dylan and I went to the Bay which is my favorite. And of course I got to cuddle up next to my bubby every night. We even partied a little and had s'mores, which Dylan is a professional s'more maker even when hes a little under the influence. Oh and we got really really cute pictures thanks to Layla <3

Second time around

I honestly cannot believe its almost been two years. Four more days. Two years that I've been with my second half.. Things are moving so fast. Although things are kind of complicated right now, we are here for each other and I know everything will end up being alright. And now he's right down the street from me. I love it. I basically live with him. And I get to see his family more too. I think its adorable and it gives me chills when his mom mentions us having kids. It so cute, waaaay too early but its still cute. I mean I love kids and I can't wait to have a family with him. But I can wait until we are ready. Probably in like almost 10 years.. That's such a long time. But we have so much to do before we even think about that stuff.. Like school and stable jobs and actually having money. And actually being able to buy a car without having trouble with loans and what not. I know we will be great parents when it comes to that but for now we are  going to be kids. We are going to focus on us. But anyway yeah its funny but I mean scary because no thank you for now. Hut I love them and that they live so close. Layla is opening up to me more and more and I love it I feel like I have a sister 😂 I'm honestly the luckiest girl  in the world. Dylan is the best person I have ever met and he is the reason I'm happy. Even after two years we are still experiencing new things together and growing and just having fun and also being there for eachother. But yeah 4 more days till the couch comes. And I'm the butt prints to his couch because he made me the person I am today 😍😆 we are weird I love it. And I love him.

Changes

Next month it will mark two years with the love of my life. Not only will we be celebrating that on the thirteenth, on the July first he's moving back to Emmaus. This means I will be able to spend a lot more time with him and his family. For now I sleepover usually on Sundays but when he's here I feel like I'll be able to sleep over more and just see him in general. I'm so excited. I'm excited to see where our relationship will go. He is my soul mate and I honestly love him so much. All the missing him and only seeing in once a week will finally have paid off. I couldn't imagine my life with out him, he is my rock.

Chicago was great.

I'm honestly so proud of my brother. It was crazy hectic getting over there but it was so worth it. I got to see my brother graduate from Navy boot camp. Not seeing him for 2 months was horrible. But now its a little better because he has his phone. It still sucks I don't get to see him all the time but we had a great couple days. I got to see my other navy sailor Joey. They are such great friends, it was like they were never even separated. It made me really happy seeing how far they have came. They are going great places and that's a real friendship they have. Mark looked so great, he's slimming out and looked really sharp in his uniforms. I'm so proud of him and Joey! His base was really cool too, lots of shops and everything they need is on there. They like never need to leave. Although I hated leaving Mark and Joey being home is such a relief. I missed my kitty, and I missed knowing where I was and not getting lost every time we went somewhere. Then I got to see Dylan which was even better. I was a little tired and grumpy but it all worked out we had a really good day. I'm so excited for him to move down here next month so we can start our little "family". I want my kitten, I'm sooooo excited. Tonight when we went to his soon to be house he was like look its our home. Obviously I'm not moving in anytime soon, considering I'm still in school but it's crazy. I can't believe it's been this long. I honestly love him so much, even when he makes me mad I just love him to the ends of the earth. He's so cute and perfect and just asdf. We keep talking about what were going to do for our two years, because thats kind of a big deal. But whatever we do I know it'll be great because I'll be with him. And he'll be living in Emmaus so I'll be staying over and just seeing him a lot more. It'll be so nice. I hate only seeing him once a week. But soon it wont matter because I'll be out of school and he'll be right down the road. This has been a really good weekend. Now I just need to get though one more week of school.

love

I honestly love my ba so much. Its been super crazy now that I'm back at work. I feel like people are even bigger jerks than they were last year though, which sucks. But I'm glad I have him to comfort me. I kind of just want to find a better job. I don't think dealing with people is my thing. I just want to deal with the people I actually like like my family and Dylan's family and my friends. That's all. Last night was perfect god I love sleeping next to you. I can't wait till you move back and I can see you more. Then everyone can see us and be jealous of how hot you are c; no buy its going to be great. And then we can get our kitten and just be a little family and it'll be so cute. I'll be 18 next year so woohoo, I'm sure we're only onto better and bigger things ❤

MArkkkk

I honestly miss my brother so much
i have so much to tell him its driving me crazy!
so far hes missed my first time driving, me starting work again, Dylan's moving back, my fastest mile, Dylan got awesome speakers so thats exciting. hes almost out of boot camp though so it will get better i know it will. It kinda sucked having to go through mothers day without him though. Since he actually understands how much it sucks. I just miss being able to talk to him and get his advice and I miss ridding in the Van. I think things are getting tense between Dylan and I because I'm so worked up all the time and now he hears alllll of it because marks not here to hear me complain first... I already don't like work. I thought I missed it but I realize now that i didn't. It's already too hot, and the new people are dumb. I keep not getting to spend all of sunday with dylan because I have to work. That honestly makes me so sad. When I work like this I end up not doing my homework ever.. Its bad. I just can't wait till dylan moves here. It will be so perfect honestly. I can't wait to get out of school only one more month and the schedules are like short till the end now. It will go by wayyyy fast. I can't wait. I just want to spend more time with Dylan. I'm always pissy because I just have so much to tell him but theres things that just get lost in communication when its through texting. I really need a new phone.. Like it's so bad. I don't know I'm being cheap I don't want to get it yet. Ugh I'm so tired. I'm just writing this to waste time till Dylan gets out, which should be soon. Hopefully.

Driving

My Dad finally took me out driving today. I drove on the road for the first time ever. It was nerve racking but I think I did good! go me

Am I a cute girlfriend yet?

I can see us growing up

So much has changed in the past two years. We have both grown so much. Every year, several months, every anniversary really, I see us growing. If I flash back to July 2013 I was only 15 years old. I wasn't very healthy I wasn't doing very well in school I was hanging out with the wrong cloud.. now it's completely different for me. I'm thinking about college, focusing a lot on my grades, I'm running, I'm just getting older. The same thing for Dylan, he has accomplished a lot recently and I couldn't be more proud. He trained out of the blue to run a 10K and was amazing. He ran it under and hour. He is doing so good with getting into shape, and now he's going to focus on building muscle which is a plus for me. I'm just kitten, I always loved his body but I'm glad he's getting even healthier. I like it because it keeps me motivated to do better for my self too. We are not just a mentally healthy relationship but now physically healthy. He is also applying for colleges finally and looking for a big boy job. I'm so glad he is getting ready to change his life in all these good ways. He's moving forward and growing up. Not only is he going to get a better job, he's also going to move back to Emmaus soon and I couldn't be more excited. In only a couple months he will be only 10 minutes away from me. This is a big step for us, because this is going to mean a lot more time for us to spend with each other. Losing the distance will save extreme gas money. I think it will help us a lot. This week starts another couple months of only seeing each other once a week. This is really hard for me especially without my brother here. I don't know what to do with myself. Maybe it will be okay, because hopefully with the warmer weather I can do more running and exercising outside. It will be a rough couple of months but we've done it before and we'll do it again. I'm not scared we will do just fine. We started it with an extra long weekend together so I think this week will be okay. This weekend was perfect though. I spent 3 days at his house. I got to spend time with his mother and sister which was really nice, we went out to eat while he was at work. We got to have some girl time which I never have, ever. Layla even talks to me about boys and problems she has which I think is great. I like being able to talk to her and help her. Next year she will be at the same school as me too so that will be fun. I just love the family atmosphere they have at their house. And I like how they make me feel like I belong. But anyway It was the best weekend I've had in awhile. I got to sleep with my love and wake up next to him. Even though his bed is too tiny I love sleeping next to him. I loved getting the chance to go to his race and see him. I'm so proud. I'm proud of all of them. So here is to our Year and 9months, and to many many more to come.

Navy

I can't believe he left already. It seems like just yesterday he signed up. I couldn't be more proud of him. I think this is a great career choice for him. He is going to be so healthy and get to travel. I know that he will be great  in boot camp he's strong. Even though I support his decision of joining the navy I'm going to miss him lots. He was always there for me, I mean he had to be he's my brother. But we were just so close and its hard not having him around. I'm kind of nervous for it only to be my father and I. He just gets so angry and sometimes I can't handle it. Now Marks not here dealing with my Dad with me. I just feel alone. Don't get me wrong I have Dylan but when he's at work its just me and my thoughts. I'm trying so hard to just be happy but it gets hard. One minute i'll be laughing and having a good time and then i'll be upset. I just feel like crying all the time. A lot of my friends don't understand why I'm so upset. You get really close with your family when there is a loss of a loved one. When my mom passed away I think that's when I started getting close with my brother. He was the only one that know what I was going through because he was going through the same thing. I don't think many people have a bond with their siblings like we did. We had to mature at a young age. But he was always my older brother. He always had to be the role model. And don't get me wrong we, its not like we never fought. We would fight so so much when we were little and now. But we have a lot more good times than bad. Not only did we handle the loss of our mom together but then there was my Dad. After my mom passed away my father changed. I can't even remember the old him. He is nothing but angry and depressed these days. I never confided in my father, in fact we barely ever talk. I always went right to mark when I had any problems. I love my father but sometimes I just cant handle him. He gets so mad and nothing. It gets mad at his life and takes it out on everyone else. It makes me feel bad because I can't make him happy. Why is he so upset? am I really that bad of a child? I try so hard, to keep my grades up and just be a good kid. I don't lie to my father I never get into any kind of trouble but this is just not good enough for him. I just don't understand it. And I've lived with this since I was just a little kid. Thankfully I have Dylan and his family. They are so caring and they mean so much to me. I don't think I could do this without them. I honestly love Dylan so much. He makes me feel better. When I'm with him he knows how to calm me down and just be able to relax. He is my forever.

life😂

I'm really happy Im finally running again and its starting to warm up a little. I really want to get healthy, and working out helps me stay occupied and not just be alone with my thoughts as much. I've been really on edge lately, and I think its because everything is about to change. Only about 2 weeks to go and honestly its so hard to think about. I'm trying to keep myself occupied but its hard because I don't really want to do anything expecially on the weekend. I just don't like going anywhere without Dylan and then when he's at work and my brother is in Georgia I'm just bored. And then I start thinking about how everything is going to change in the next couple months. Marks leaving, I'm starting work, Dylan is going to have a real job or go to school and this might be the last time that we have a set schedule for awhile. I just don't want to take it for granted anymore. I want to have fun again and jot just be stressed and take it out on him. He's  what makes me happy and I need to stop finding reasons to lash out. Sometimes I just don't get what's wrong with me. I'm not myself lately and I hope he realizes that and doesn't take my additude personally. I think he understands that I'm just having a hard time with everhthing. But Im going to try my hardest to control my emotions better and not get upset over dumb things so we can get back to laughing and having fun. I can't believe we've been together for almost 2 years already.. He's honestly changed my life so much for the better. If it wasn't for him I'd still be hanging out with the wrong crowd and the weird part is I think he's a big reason why I lost a really long friendship. And I think that friendship was getting me into a lot of bad situations so I think I should be thankful. It was right around the time Dylan and I were getting serious when my friendship started changing and we weren't communicating as much and then there was sneaking around and back stabbing and all that horrible stuff and he was there for me. Dylan is not only my boyfriend but my best friend and my sole mate. We are so different but it works and he has my heart. And he made me a better person. I'd probably be dead by now without him. I've also started making better friendships with girls because I realized not every girl is a liar and I can trust other people I just trusted the wrong person before. But I met this girl I relate so well with and study hall is so fun because we just talk and talk and talk, I haven't had that with a girl I can relate to in a long time. I've met I lot of great people this school year. Having them to talk to helps a lot. But I just I can't get out of this funk because I'm losing my brother for 4years. Its crazy to think about but I keep thinking its just him moving out. He is 20 its that time. Its just weird because he is also my best friend and I like to consider his friends mine because they are great and now they're going to be gone too. Joey is already gone and he was also like a brother and I just can't wait for them all to come home. One of my brothers old friends Sebastian came by the other day and he was like shocked that big mark was leaving. Its weird to see how much they both progressed. I think my brother has come really far but his friend hasn't really done anything. That seems crazy because it seems like mark has been through so much since graduation. But it was nice seeing them together made me feel like it was freshman year again and I didn't have to worry about what I'm doing after high school and having to figure out what I want to do with my life. Ugh just so much going on, so much that in have to think about alone. Because I usually just ask mark this kind of stuff. But I need to go solo on this because its my future. And I just need to realize its okay hell always be in my life because he's my brother but he needs to do this right now. I have dylan so I think I will be okay. I'm going to focus on bettering my relationship and building my body to a healthy standard and writing my brother I guess. 👍👌

today was perf

I finally got to see my ba today <3 I feel like it'd been so long since we had real quality time. Because last sunday we had hales birthday party to go to. But it snowed bad so I had to go home early. Then I got sick with the flu Thursday and we got even more snow. But fortunately today was great. It took forever for Sunday to be here. We had another birthday party to go to but it was really fun and then we even had alone time. It was perfect. I even got to bond with his little sister which was awesome. I love them all so much. I'm so lucky I found dywan.

Some people are so dumb ;-;

So you're either a horrible liar or just dumb af
Who smokes while they're pregnant? That is bull crap, maybe if you're intentionally trying to hurt the poor thing. Smoking is dumb no matter what, but if you're doing in while you're pregnant then that's just a whole new level of stupidity. But I mean if you want to ruin your health that's one thing but endangering another? just wow. that's selfish and just wrong. You need Jesus

I'm so glad i grew up and realized just how dumb smoking is. I was so young and it was so stupid, I'm so glad I had people who really cared about me to help me realize that it wasn't something I wanted to do. I'd be the happiest person if I never touched another cancer stick again. Here's to getting healthy and getting in shape.

Healthy goals

Senior

I can't believe I'm picking out my senior year schedule. I just find it astounding of how quick high school is flying by. It's hard to get my mind to grasp the reality of me having to grow up. I'm 17 years old. I have to start making decisions, so I can figure out what I'm going to do after high school. I've got some idea but It's still very scary. I'm glad I have Dylan to help me through this confusing time. Unfortunately I'm not going to have my brother which is pretty scary. It's like i'll finally be on my own, my brother has been there for me whenever I needed him. This is going to be a weird adjustment but It just has to happen. But anyway, I've also been on a diet and trying to exercise. Dylan and I just started exercising with each other. He's doing really good but I can only really do the workout two times a week and it stinks. But I've been working on my yoga so at least I'm getting some kind of exercise in for the day. I'm eating a lot less too. I'm just telling myself I'm not hungry and believe it or not it usually works. The only thing is that on the weekend when I'm really bored it's hard not to find something to eat. I need to be doing something or just be with someone because it sucks when I'm just sitting doing nothing. I think this is for the best though I want Dylan to be as healthy as possible and I want to be too. No matter what I love him with all my heart but I really like this healthy kick that we are on.

we cute af

love 💕

Valentines day round 2 with Dylan was perfect. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I got to spend a day and a half with my love. We are doing so good lately. We are laughing and having fun, going to see movies, I even got him to dance with me. I don't know why I wanted to I've never slow danced with a guy before. Of course it was goofy and not that long but ugh we are so cute. He makes me so happy. He even put up with a chick flick for me. Which I know he hated but he took me anyway. He is adorable and all mine forever and always. I love him to the moon and back and then some. We are so passionate lately and I love it. I can't wait to see him again. Wish I could see him everyday. He is perfect. Here's to 1year and 7months and to many many more. 💞

moving on for good ✌

Well, finally got to just about the last of them.  But idk looking at our first pictures its like I'm getting rid of my middle school memories. But I just need to let go of of that part of my life so I guess these are the last of the memories.

6th - 10th grade 

Good Luck in the Navy Joey!

17

I'm finally 17. Not the biggest accomplishment in life but I embrace getting older. Now I can say I'm almost 18. I feel like I could never wait to grow up and I still get the feeling sometimes that I just want to fast forward to start my actual life of having a family and a real job.. but now that graduation keeps coming faster and faster... I'm not sure if I'm ready to adventure into the real world. Life is so easy when you're just a kid in high school. You don't have to do anything, except for school work. But that's nothing compared to paying bills working a daily job and long hours. I respect my father for being ontop of that kind of stuff.(most of the time at least) It just seems scary. Now I'm not sure if I'm ready to be 18. This past month I've realized that I still have a lot of growing up to do. For some reason I'm like going back to that really shy period of my life. I can't help but get over whelmed lately from going anywhere near outside of my comfort zone. I'm starting to almost panic at dumb small things that involve me being social. I'm not really sure why its happening. I don't mean to be like this, I wish I could just suck it up and not let it bother me. But I literally feel sick to my stomach because I'm that stressed out about talking in front of a crowd. I'm not sure what to do. I thought I was getting better. My boyfriend suggested that I should ask my doctor about anxiety medicine. I see what he is saying, and I think that could possibly help. I just don't know what it will do. And I would stress out about talking to my dad about it, I don't think he believes in that kind of stuff to be honest.. But then again hes taken medication for depression a few years back and pain pills and all kinds of stuff like that. Maybe he does notice that I can get really stressed out and over react to small things and get super nervous for no reason. Maybe he'll think it would help me. I don't know, I'm just afraid that he wont believe me or say I don't need it or something like that. I don't want him or my brother to think I'm dumb because they don't think I need it. Maybe I don't. Maybe its just a stressful time. I've been finding myself with a lot of time on my hands and that's never good. I used to be so good at finding something to do with myself while Dylan was a work like drawing or running or scrap booking but recently I just don't know what to do with myself. I have no interest in drawing or running or anything. I don't know what is happening maybe its just because its cold out. Or maybe its because everything is changing with my brother leaving and joey leaving in 4 days. Its going to stink seeing him leave and my brother being alone. I'm pretty sure tomorrow is going to be the last time I'll see him in a long time. I think I'm just in a rut. I'm not unhappy, but I just don't have ambition to do anything. When I don't have anything to do I start thinking about my mom which is weird because I don't have a reason to right now. I just can't wait for it to be warm so I can hopefully get into better shape and see my deer more because I miss him so much. I think that might be playing a roll in this change I'm seeing in myself. Seeing him less gives me more time to myself which I don't need. It's kind of scary because this is only the beginning of us having a hard time to see each other. Eventually Dylan is going to have to go to college and what is going to happen then. Are we going to go to the same college? close colleges? when will we even see each other. Its so hard to even think about it. I'm just so scared of us not being able to see each other. I want us to be together always. I love him and I just always want to be around him. But anyway I'm getting way way off topic here. I was righting this about my birthday. I had a great two days. I spent the day before with my wonderful boyfriend and his family and then my birthday I spent the whole day home on a snow day with my loving family. I got wonderful presents some jewelry and a new camera that I'm in love with. Its a mini Polaroid camera that is just so cute and ugh my boyfriend is amazing at gifts.

I tried

23 Promises Every Girl Should Make To Her Best Friends And Keep Forever

1. I promise to disagree with you often, love you always and respect whatever it is you decide.

2. I promise to tell you that he’s allwrong for you, but support you regardless

3. I promise to hold your hair back, even though it’s 9 am and you’ve been puking for the last eight hours and I don’t even know whose apartment we’re at.

4. I promise to take the fall for something you did – knowing full well that you’d do it for me in a heartbeat.

5. I promise to fight with you, to force you to step outside of your comfort zone.

6. I promise to laugh at you when you fall: down the stairs, at a party, on the sidewalk, on the catwalk. I promise to laugh so hard I actually start to pee a little.

7. I promise to tell you when you’re making a mistake – and then help you get out of it.

8. I promise to remind you, always, that things could be worse.

9. I promise never to show up empty-handed and to bring enough wine and cheese for the both of us.

10. I promise never to tell you that things will be all right because, honestly, I don’t know if they ever will be.

11. I promise to protect you from others – and sometimes even from yourself.

12. I promise to be there when you need me, to come running as fast as I can and to be with you in spirit, in person or on the phone, so you’re never experiencing the tough stuff alone.

13. I promise never to bite my tongue and always to tell you how I feel – especially about the heinous pink top and those hideous sequined pants.

14. I promise never to sugarcoat the tough stuff and always to tell you the truth, even if it’s the last thing that you want to hear.

15. I promise to stand up for you, stand up to you and stand with you, even when I have no clue what we’re standing for.

16. I promise always to be your right-hand woman, your partner in crime, the yin to your yang, the Bert to your Ernie – no matter how many years it’s been since college or how long has passed since the last time we blacked out together.

17. I promise never to stand idly by while a man who you love disrespects you.

18. I promise never to tell you not to do the stupid stuff we all know you’re going to regret eventually. Instead, I promise to do them with you and we can regret them later.

19. I promise never to assume you want to share that chocolate bar, that pint of ice cream or that jar of Nutella – so I’ll just bring two instead.

20. I promise to let you run off and lose yourself, find yourself, reinvent and reimagine yourself, but I promise never to let you get so far as to forget your way home.

21. I promise never to tell anyone about that one time in college, or that one trip to the Caribbean, or that one time we… I promise to protect your secrets like they were my own.

22. I promise to make you want more, to make you reach for more, to make you want to do better than the shoes you’re standing in now — even when you don’t know what you want.

23. I promise to love you, unconditionally, through every high, low, peak and valley life takes us through.

Friday

I'm so glad midterms are almost done. Only one more to go, and its my best subject. It feels so good not having to study because for all my other classes I studied my little butt off. I studied from the moment I got home till about 9 or 10. I hated it and it got me so stressed out because I just couldn't look over everything or memorize everything. I did average on them so far... I'm pretty confident about geometry though. I know what I'm doing in that class and the formula sheet makes it so easy. Today wasn't that bad since I got my deer to pick me up after school. It took some persuading but eventually I got him to come. He had to go meet his brother anyway. So it alllll worked out. I'm so glad I got to see him. This whole only once a week thing is killing me. We were just seeing each other so much over the past couple weeks but now it just stinks. I just miss him so much, but he's making a lot of extra money with the less gas and the extra work. It's only for a little while so I'm just going to have to get used to it for now. I love when we are out and about around the area and see people I know. Considering only about two of my friends have actually met Dylan. But even people that I'm just aquatint with, it just feels good. I like showing off what is mine. I really like it actually. Now that I have a ring it makes me feel better at school, because I don't have to worry about people thinking I'm single. Like yes I'm currently in a happy relationship with the best boyfriend anyone could ever have, have a good day. I honestly can't believe its already been a year and a half. That is just crazy. I can't imagine myself without him anymore. I just want to spend all the time in the world with him that I can. Next year or the year after or whenever he decides to start college and I get another job it will be so so hard for us to find time. I can already see it happening. Which is why I don't want to pass up any opportunity that I have to see him. He is my rock and I love him with all my heart and I'm never letting him go.

The holidays continue..

I think I just ended my best year yet. My life chaned so much and I will never forfet a lot of things that happened thus year. There is honestly just so much that went on this year.

• First real job
• Permit
• Didn't touch a single cigarette 
• Maintained my relationship with my love
• Let go of the people hurting me
• Went to the beach with my boyfriend
• Stayed overnight
• Went to my first concert
• Donated my hair
• My brother joining the navy
• Made new friends
• Went to new York during Christmas
• Promise Ring

The list could keep going and going. And to top it all of I finished the year with a big bang. The last couple months held the best moments of the year. I went to New York for the first time, and even better it was the day before Christmas Eve. It was unlike anything I've ever seen, the buildings were much taller than I imagined. I learned a lot of history about the place, everything was just perfect. I loved seeing all the lights qnd seeing my first broadway show. I can't wait to go back, hopefully I'll get to take Dylan there one day. The next day was also a big day for me. Christmas Eve I went home with Dylan to spend the night with him and his family. We opened each others presents at midnight. That's when I got a great surprise and unwrapped a purse that had a small present in it, and as soon as I saw it I was so happy. Of course it was a promise ring from my love. I almost cried I felt the water in my eyes because I was so happy. I can't wait to see what 2015 has in store for us. I love him with all my heart I couldn't see myself without him. Here's to a year and 6 months and hopefully many many more to come. I'm confident that 2015 is going to be amazing for us. We have been golden lately. It went so fast I feel like we just got together not so long ago. I forget what it is like not to have him, I'm sure it was just horrible because he is just amazing to me. I will never let him go. My other presents were great I felt so loved, his family got so much for me. I wasn't expecting it at all, they are all so caring and I love them like they are my family. I can't wait to further my relationship with Dylan and with his family and getting to know them. I realized his little sister and I can relate on somethings and she's really nice and her and Dylan are just so Mich alike it's great. After a great Christmas Eve with Dylan I went back home to my first family and got to see my cousins that I haven't seen in a good 7years.. It was pretty good. It felt good actually being with my family. But the real fun started on new years with Dylan and our little group. We all went to a party and it was wild. I honestly had a great time. We were laughing at the dumbest things i don't even know what happen. I was saying weird things to all our friends who I usually don't say anything to and I was laughing on top of Layla. Soso many jello shots, they were so good. I'm just glad that I got to spend new years eve with Dylan and got to kiss him as the ball dropped and we hopped into the new year. That just makes me feel that since we started the year together great we are going to end it even better. After having just a great hangover the next day I got to spend another night with ba because we needed some alone time since we were with people for new years eve and new years day. Getting to sleep next to each other and waking up next to each other was what we needed. Then I woke up to dippy eggs and coffee. Boy am I spoiled 😘😍
Now I'm looking forward to my birthday turning 17 finally ✌
And then finally valentines day 💝💝💝