Nothing feels right anymore. Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy. I feel like i'm searching for something i'm not going to find, and i'm screwing my life up in the processes. All i want to do is sit alone and just do nothing, i don't want to get up or talk or move. I want to go away from everyone and just think, sit there and think. Maybe that's what i need. I'm starting to get to the point where i can't talk to anyone, i don't think they want to know my problems so why tell them. I'll keep it to myself so they don't get involved. I'll go out and feel a little better but then i come back and i have that pit in my stomach again. Everything is changing so fast. I don't like change, but that all that is happening right now. I can't focus on anything except how horribly i feel. I need something to take my mind off my hands for a little. I'm not going to give up, i guess i just have to keep looking for something to help. I was happy, i wish i felt like i did four months ago, i was so happy why did it have to end. What am i now? nothing.