Sorry

I feel like I have to say something. I'm sorry to the people I've hurt in my life or all the people that I've pissed off that didn't deserve it. I try my hardest to be there for my friends, and make everyone happy. But I have my days where I slip and end up not caring.. Or just too concerned with myself. But honestly, I'm making a lot if close friends this year and I just want to be there for them. By now if your still my friend that means something. I want to be friends with people who I'll actually care to talk to after high school. Which is coming up sooner than later, which kind of scares me but that's a different topic.. But I really just have been getting close to my friends again which fit some reason just got away from me. They like me for who I am, even when I'm a bitch one day they still stick around. Ever since I got close to Sarah, everything is just going really good. Like yeah I had friends and of course my boyfriend but everyone needs that best friend. Honestly I feel so close to her and we haven't even known each other that long. But I'm glad we met each other. She's just fun, and I needed someone to have fun with and go to parties with and hangout with. Like I feel like i finally have a potential partner in crime again. Ever since I've had the talk about college and like how I'm actually growing up now... I just I want to get close to the people that I actually care about. I need to make those last good memories. Junior year is going to be a good one I can feel it, but a stressful one. At least I'll always have Dylan who helps me through everything without him I wouldn't be able to get through everything. He is life, we've grown so close over the past year, he's to another winter. I'm so excited for the fall season. I love scary things so this is like the best. And I love being able to experience things with my ba. Pumpkin carving, corn mazes, haunted houses, perfection. God I love you. I'm going to need close friends when my brother goes to the navy. I want him to so what he wants but he helps me so much. And I'm going to miss him so much.. But I can't tell him that because I want him to do what makes him happy. Those two people alone have made me who I am today. They deserve so much thanks. I don't know what I'd do with out them.