Lol you don't get it. I was mean because I cared. Everything I ever said was me trying to help you. Maybe you'll never understand that. But one day, if you do realize that all I was trying to do was help you, get a hold of me. You can say I was a horrible friend because I called what you were doing stupid it stupid or whatever. Yeah I was harsh I know that, but I wasn't the only one to do wrong. I was truthful. I never tried to pull anything over on you, because you were my friend. I tried to help you and if that made me a bad friend then I apologize. All I wanted was you to have a good life but I guess we don't see it the same way. I see my life before I have kids and a family. I want to experience things, travel, live. I want a good education a steady job and a husband before I even consider kids. Because I've seen what it does to you. You're not the kid anymore. A parents job is stressful and I want to be ready for it when I decide that I am. You know why? Because I want to be the best that I can be when I'm a mom. I never want my kids to feel unloved. I want them to have a family. But till then I want to live it up. I want to do what I want and make memories. I want to have stories to tell my grand children. But I'm not going to be dumb and get myself killed. I want a long life. A full happy life. This is my time. When I have kids, its their time.
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