Late night thinking 🙈

I wonder If you ever think about us before everything. I do occasionally. I mean our lives are completely different and I'm happy with where I am but still like sometimes I wish that it was just back in 6th grade going to dumb school dances. Growing up in a hassle. I'm excited to be a senior but like I had such different e,pectations of this year when I was just a freshman. I've become so independent in school. We used to always be together and now its like I'm the lone wolf. And it kinda doesn't bother me because I just don't like walking with anyone else. I just can't believe how we've changed and its like getting to the point where I forget what it was like when we were close. And it feels like that wasn't even me. But idk sometimes I miss it

Delaware was perfect. I got to spend a week with my second family in Delaware. I had so much fun and I wish we never had to leave. It went by so fast, but we got to do just about everything. We went to the beach a couple times. We shopped a lot. We ate a lot. Dylan and I went to the Bay which is my favorite. And of course I got to cuddle up next to my bubby every night. We even partied a little and had s'mores, which Dylan is a professional s'more maker even when hes a little under the influence. Oh and we got really really cute pictures thanks to Layla <3

Second time around

I honestly cannot believe its almost been two years. Four more days. Two years that I've been with my second half.. Things are moving so fast. Although things are kind of complicated right now, we are here for each other and I know everything will end up being alright. And now he's right down the street from me. I love it. I basically live with him. And I get to see his family more too. I think its adorable and it gives me chills when his mom mentions us having kids. It so cute, waaaay too early but its still cute. I mean I love kids and I can't wait to have a family with him. But I can wait until we are ready. Probably in like almost 10 years.. That's such a long time. But we have so much to do before we even think about that stuff.. Like school and stable jobs and actually having money. And actually being able to buy a car without having trouble with loans and what not. I know we will be great parents when it comes to that but for now we are  going to be kids. We are going to focus on us. But anyway yeah its funny but I mean scary because no thank you for now. Hut I love them and that they live so close. Layla is opening up to me more and more and I love it I feel like I have a sister 😂 I'm honestly the luckiest girl  in the world. Dylan is the best person I have ever met and he is the reason I'm happy. Even after two years we are still experiencing new things together and growing and just having fun and also being there for eachother. But yeah 4 more days till the couch comes. And I'm the butt prints to his couch because he made me the person I am today 😍😆 we are weird I love it. And I love him.

Changes

Next month it will mark two years with the love of my life. Not only will we be celebrating that on the thirteenth, on the July first he's moving back to Emmaus. This means I will be able to spend a lot more time with him and his family. For now I sleepover usually on Sundays but when he's here I feel like I'll be able to sleep over more and just see him in general. I'm so excited. I'm excited to see where our relationship will go. He is my soul mate and I honestly love him so much. All the missing him and only seeing in once a week will finally have paid off. I couldn't imagine my life with out him, he is my rock.

Chicago was great.

I'm honestly so proud of my brother. It was crazy hectic getting over there but it was so worth it. I got to see my brother graduate from Navy boot camp. Not seeing him for 2 months was horrible. But now its a little better because he has his phone. It still sucks I don't get to see him all the time but we had a great couple days. I got to see my other navy sailor Joey. They are such great friends, it was like they were never even separated. It made me really happy seeing how far they have came. They are going great places and that's a real friendship they have. Mark looked so great, he's slimming out and looked really sharp in his uniforms. I'm so proud of him and Joey! His base was really cool too, lots of shops and everything they need is on there. They like never need to leave. Although I hated leaving Mark and Joey being home is such a relief. I missed my kitty, and I missed knowing where I was and not getting lost every time we went somewhere. Then I got to see Dylan which was even better. I was a little tired and grumpy but it all worked out we had a really good day. I'm so excited for him to move down here next month so we can start our little "family". I want my kitten, I'm sooooo excited. Tonight when we went to his soon to be house he was like look its our home. Obviously I'm not moving in anytime soon, considering I'm still in school but it's crazy. I can't believe it's been this long. I honestly love him so much, even when he makes me mad I just love him to the ends of the earth. He's so cute and perfect and just asdf. We keep talking about what were going to do for our two years, because thats kind of a big deal. But whatever we do I know it'll be great because I'll be with him. And he'll be living in Emmaus so I'll be staying over and just seeing him a lot more. It'll be so nice. I hate only seeing him once a week. But soon it wont matter because I'll be out of school and he'll be right down the road. This has been a really good weekend. Now I just need to get though one more week of school.

love

I honestly love my ba so much. Its been super crazy now that I'm back at work. I feel like people are even bigger jerks than they were last year though, which sucks. But I'm glad I have him to comfort me. I kind of just want to find a better job. I don't think dealing with people is my thing. I just want to deal with the people I actually like like my family and Dylan's family and my friends. That's all. Last night was perfect god I love sleeping next to you. I can't wait till you move back and I can see you more. Then everyone can see us and be jealous of how hot you are c; no buy its going to be great. And then we can get our kitten and just be a little family and it'll be so cute. I'll be 18 next year so woohoo, I'm sure we're only onto better and bigger things ❤

MArkkkk

I honestly miss my brother so much
i have so much to tell him its driving me crazy!
so far hes missed my first time driving, me starting work again, Dylan's moving back, my fastest mile, Dylan got awesome speakers so thats exciting. hes almost out of boot camp though so it will get better i know it will. It kinda sucked having to go through mothers day without him though. Since he actually understands how much it sucks. I just miss being able to talk to him and get his advice and I miss ridding in the Van. I think things are getting tense between Dylan and I because I'm so worked up all the time and now he hears alllll of it because marks not here to hear me complain first... I already don't like work. I thought I missed it but I realize now that i didn't. It's already too hot, and the new people are dumb. I keep not getting to spend all of sunday with dylan because I have to work. That honestly makes me so sad. When I work like this I end up not doing my homework ever.. Its bad. I just can't wait till dylan moves here. It will be so perfect honestly. I can't wait to get out of school only one more month and the schedules are like short till the end now. It will go by wayyyy fast. I can't wait. I just want to spend more time with Dylan. I'm always pissy because I just have so much to tell him but theres things that just get lost in communication when its through texting. I really need a new phone.. Like it's so bad. I don't know I'm being cheap I don't want to get it yet. Ugh I'm so tired. I'm just writing this to waste time till Dylan gets out, which should be soon. Hopefully.