So good

I find myself listening to so many different music genres. I'm not the type of person to just stay with one kind of music. When people get asked what kind of music they like the usual response is either, "oh i listen to a bit of everything i guess." Or there's the answer of just one specific genera. I know the first answer is kind of bland and might make people think that you're not into much music so you don't really care but i disagree. I think that might be the case for some people but others not at all. I have to answer that i listen to basically everything. I mean i'm picky with what songs i listen to but I find myself listening to different genres all the time. I love music. I don't like doing things without background music. When i'm home alone i need to blast my music. When i'm upset i go in my room turn up my music and just sit there and relax. I think you get the picture that music is a big part of my life. Music is a powerful thing. It changes your mood, and helps some people make decisions. I find it pretty interesting of what a song can do to people. Currently i'm mostly listening to like Indy music or like classic rock. But i find myself listening to rap and country and even like b104 and the pop stations. Why does my mind find beauty is so many different types of music. Some people say that you can tell a lot about someone by the kind of music they listen to. If that's true, what does listening to everything say about me? My music choices remind me of my life. I cant decide on anything, when it comes to my music or my clothes or food or anything. Why does my mind never know what it wants. I wish i knew what i wanted, because i always feel like i have to answer questions with "i don't know". Why don't i know. What forces me to feel like its not my place to chose. I want to be a person that knows what they want, someone that doesn't need someone to follow and go along with their ideas. I want to have my own ideas. I just need to keep trying. I want to force myself to chose for myself instead of letting everyone else decide my life for me.

3 weeks 2 days

I finally think I found a relationship that has potential to last. I was beginning to think I was never going to get into a relationship that lasted for more then a week. But now what do you know, my relationships still going pretty well. My first year at high school consisted of about 4 or 5 relationships that lasted about a week. With a couple of relationship kinda things that never made it past a friendship and never gained a title. I started to think that the only way to stay happy was to stay out of a relationship. Why go through the big deal of breaking up for a month when the relationship was only a week. When i would just flirt with my crushes it seemed like i could stay pretty happy. But staying single for that long, i kind of forgot what it was like to be in a relationship and what it felt like. Where i am now being in this relationship, I think i like it better than just being single and flirting around. I get to feel like i always have that one person thats going to be there for me. He makes my day everyday. I get told good morning and goodnight everyday. I feel loved. I like being cute, and holding hands and kissing and all that. Who doesn't want that? I didn't know i wanted that until now. I'm glad i have him in my life. If i haven't met him i don't know where i'd be today, or who id be talking to or what bad things id be doing. I hope we continue this, and it really lasts.

"The Only Exception"

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
That she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
Keeping at comfortable distance.
And up until now I've sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
When you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream.
Oh-oh-oh-ohhh.

You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.