we made cookies 😻😻

It started off as just a plain old assignment but it was so much fun with you. I loved making cute Christmas cookies with you. They even turned out really good. We make a great team😘😻😻😻😍

Navy

I keep feeling over whelmed like I have a lot of problems stressing me out. When really its just one immense problem slowly gnawing on my emotions. I'm losing my best friend that has been with me through everything. Soon their going to be gone for awhile and I know it's going to be hard because just thinking about it is hard. I have to stay positive though because I know that this is the best thing for them and I couldn't be more proud that they are going and actually doing something with their life. The problem is that I've relied on him for everything throughout my whole life. It's going to be so different. Who am I going to call when I'm stranded at the park with no ride, or when I get out early and no one else is answering their phone? The hard part is I can't tell you how I really feel because I need to be supportive. This is your dream and your living it, I can't take that away. You deserve my full support. It's the strangest filling in the world not being able to talk to that one person that you supposedly can tell anything to. I just know that I need to take advantage of the time we have left and just make the best of it and that's what I'm trying to do. Now that you quite your job we get to see each other a lot more but now its so hard to get school work done because all I want to do is hangout and just have a good time. My teachers don't realize what is happening and they never do. They don't care what you're going through because you aren't special, but honestly spending time with my brother will always come before school. That sounds irresponsible but it's true that's how I feel. I'm just happy I still have my other half to comfort me and help me accept whats happening. He's helping me realize that it's going to be okay. I wont be alone I still have him. It wont be forever. I'm just really scared that once they leave we wont be as close. What if when he comes back, we cant talk like we used to. He's going to miss so much of my life. I'm growing up and this is the time when I need him the most and he wont be here. It's just so hard to even imagine what it will be like. Its hard to keep myself happy. As long as I'm with someone and keeping my mind occupied i think i'll be okay but when I come back from Dylan's and I'm just sitting at home that's when it hits me. I just hope I can spend more time with my boyfriend to keep me happy so i don't have to think about how lonely I am without my brother. I'm so thankful I have a caring boyfriend that is there for me and keeps me happy. It's not like I wont have anyone to talk to because Dylan is always there, but I'm just going to miss my brother. We've been through so much I just can't get used to being without him. I was always so dependent on him.

Thanksgiving🐔🐔

Thanksgiving was perfect. I loved seeing both my loving boyfriends family and my own. Having you around my family makes me so happy. You and my brother are the two most important people in my life and having all of us together was perfect. My dad and Lori both liked that you came to eat with us, and now my dad trusts me to stay over at your house. Almost a year and a half with you and we are doing great. My forever and always 

😍😘😍Dylan Pierce Ritter😘😍😘

bae got tatted 😻😻😻😻

Honor Roll, Navy, Year and four months...

I am doing so much better this year. I'm finally being about to maintain my success in each of my classes. I am doing my work and getting good test grades. This year is basically an eye opener for me. I'm honestly changing so much, becoming more independent, and just all around growing up. Even though I'm still a little on the edge about Mark leaving for the navy I'm happy for him. He is honestly just slimming down so much and becoming extremely healthy. I don't remember the last time he was this skinny. He eats better than I ever did. He's moving forward in his life and I'm okay with it. I realize I can't hold him back, and I'll be okay. It won't be the same but I'll be okay. This is a good path for him and I'm sure he'll have a great adventure. I'll be having my own adventures. Entering my Senior year of high school and I wont be alone. I kept thinking I was going to be alone when he was gone but I'm not going to. I have my best friend by my side the whole way. No one can replace my brother but as long as I have Dylan I think I'll be alright. Then I have the whole what happens if we get into a fight or so, but I can't think like that anymore. I think we've been together long enough now to know we'll be okay. I truly believe that. If something happens and we have a fight about whatever we should be able to work it out. A year and four months isn't just going to get thrown away. We've honestly been doing really good lately. Little fights here and there but we're having fun and experiencing new things together. I'm excited to see the new adventures coming up along our path. Knowing you have someone there for you 24/7 is the most comforting thing. I love having him to care for. Well the reason I started this was to talk about how good my school life is going and even though I'm currently writing this instead of doing my homework... It's going really good. And I'm proud of myself. I earned this and I'm going to keep it up, because I know I can do it. Hello 3.3 GPA can't wait to get you up even higher. (:

kyle concert was perfect 🎤🎵🎶🎼🎹

locks of love ❤