Senior year is flying by. I keep thinking about how this is my last everything. Like early when i had gym id always think about how that was my last workout Wednesday, my laat day to change, my last fitness test, and it was actually kind of crappy feeling. Which is weird becauae i hated all of that, and now i want to remember it. Just like now im working on my last research paper in my high school career. And thankfully im actually interested in this one. So maybe ill finiah with a bang. I've also been wondering around school and going different ways ive never been at just so i get the full experence or so it feels like it. Its really getting close. Senior 2016 ✌✌I cant wait to be with all my buddys and walk ar graduation. Its been a good year so far. Ive even made more friends which i didnt expect since its senior yere but im happy. Heres to a good end 🎓🎓

Well there's only 3 months till graduation, its getting so close. Im actually getting kind of excited. Although im not getting very far with losing weight I finally feel like im getting somewhere. I got my license which is a big step for me. Next weekend i think im going to start applying for lccc. Now i just need a car. I wouldnt have been able to do any of this without my ba. He supported me and really gave me the courage to get my license. He will always be my one and only. I also got my prom dress which was great. Dylan helped me pick it out and we found an adorable dress. Im so excited to go with him. We are going to look so good. 😍😍Its crazy that its almost 3 years, i still love you more and more everyday.

Wedding day

Saturday is the big day. I'm excited to see everyone but kinda nervous that it wont go so well. That side of the family doesn't favor mine because of the problems between my dad and my sisters mom. I hope everything goes well, but there is tension and I just hope nothing happens. First I'm going to take advantage of dressing up to take some pictures of my Baba and I. We haven't taken pictures in forever so I hope they turn out cute. But Tomorrow I start drivers training and need to find a ride to work so hopefully that goes well. I'm nervous about everything and nothing

Senior Year

Senior year is going pretty good so far. It's not as stressful this  year because I don't have as many classes as the other years. I keep thinking of things that haven't done and I feel like I have to accomplish them before I graduate. I keep thinking about how much happened in the last four years and how quickly it went. I can't believe that I'm graduating already. I think I'm ready, I just don't know what I want to do with my life. I know I want to do something that I like but there's nothing I can make a career out of. The only thing I'm really considering is being a cosmologist. Maybe be a hairstylist. I really like that kind of stuff but I don't know if that's a good career to go for or what. Anyway, things with ba have been going really good too. I'm a little moody and stressed out about somethings but we have been seeing each other so much. He takes me home after school everyday. All I want to do is put lazy clothes on cuddle and watch a movie with him. That's what I want to just relax and love each other. He's so perfect.

Late night thinking 🙈

I wonder If you ever think about us before everything. I do occasionally. I mean our lives are completely different and I'm happy with where I am but still like sometimes I wish that it was just back in 6th grade going to dumb school dances. Growing up in a hassle. I'm excited to be a senior but like I had such different e,pectations of this year when I was just a freshman. I've become so independent in school. We used to always be together and now its like I'm the lone wolf. And it kinda doesn't bother me because I just don't like walking with anyone else. I just can't believe how we've changed and its like getting to the point where I forget what it was like when we were close. And it feels like that wasn't even me. But idk sometimes I miss it

Delaware was perfect. I got to spend a week with my second family in Delaware. I had so much fun and I wish we never had to leave. It went by so fast, but we got to do just about everything. We went to the beach a couple times. We shopped a lot. We ate a lot. Dylan and I went to the Bay which is my favorite. And of course I got to cuddle up next to my bubby every night. We even partied a little and had s'mores, which Dylan is a professional s'more maker even when hes a little under the influence. Oh and we got really really cute pictures thanks to Layla <3

Second time around

I honestly cannot believe its almost been two years. Four more days. Two years that I've been with my second half.. Things are moving so fast. Although things are kind of complicated right now, we are here for each other and I know everything will end up being alright. And now he's right down the street from me. I love it. I basically live with him. And I get to see his family more too. I think its adorable and it gives me chills when his mom mentions us having kids. It so cute, waaaay too early but its still cute. I mean I love kids and I can't wait to have a family with him. But I can wait until we are ready. Probably in like almost 10 years.. That's such a long time. But we have so much to do before we even think about that stuff.. Like school and stable jobs and actually having money. And actually being able to buy a car without having trouble with loans and what not. I know we will be great parents when it comes to that but for now we are  going to be kids. We are going to focus on us. But anyway yeah its funny but I mean scary because no thank you for now. Hut I love them and that they live so close. Layla is opening up to me more and more and I love it I feel like I have a sister 😂 I'm honestly the luckiest girl  in the world. Dylan is the best person I have ever met and he is the reason I'm happy. Even after two years we are still experiencing new things together and growing and just having fun and also being there for eachother. But yeah 4 more days till the couch comes. And I'm the butt prints to his couch because he made me the person I am today 😍😆 we are weird I love it. And I love him.